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Dec 29, 2014 | 5:44 PM EST
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Voice
7.4 MB
3 min 14 sec
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4.67 / 5.00

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Rated 4.67 / 5 stars
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Genres:
Hip Hop, Rap, R&B - Hip Hop - Modern
Tags:
hope
hopeless
acapella
cyberdevil

Author Comments

Wrote this late night during one of those short-lived yet completely meaningless moments of melancholy, when everything feels like shit for no reason at all. A verse cures all, though. ;) Recorded in one take; edited ever so slightly to add some reverb and clarity. All feedback much appreciated!

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I feel bad and I don't know why,
I want to go fly,
I'm broke
I just watch days go by,

Why? No drive!
I know I could but I don't try
I lost my vibe though I was feeling so high,
And tonight don't feel like a dope night.

Maybe I'm just tired.
I went to sleep at four,
Woke up at nine,
Went to sleep two - slept no more,

My neck is sore,
I feel a lump in my throat.
Like I swallowed a pill
And it's still in the boat.

I get hoarse when I sing,
I try to hit a note.
I want to write the realest shit
That I ever wrote.

But how can I write it
When I'm so keen on writing?
You can't right a wrong if you don't wrong first,
So I write this

Visited a buddy that I've known some time,
He was home with his parents.
They were
Tired and weary.

They say he sleeps all day
And he doesn't care!
Is he going someplace? Where?
They don't know if he'll near it.

They want me to take action,
To take him out, run about
Go a round
Get some interaction.

So we took a walk
And it was fun but this is shit.
I don't know why I feel like...
Why I feel like this.

Like I just pitched ad libs.
Like this is not my voice,
Like I had all the right options
And I missed my choice!

Like I had the world in my hand
And threw it away.
The views are gray today!
I feel I lose what's at stake.

I feel I made a huge mistake.
I feel I did something wrong,
I feel like not giving a shit
Rather than struggling on.

I feel like one of those shriveled up plants,
On my lawn.
I feel like fate steers me,
And I'm just a pawn.

I feel I'm staring at defeat.
I feel the last time I laughed was last week.
I feel like I don't want to speak.
I feel tired, but I don't want to sleep.

I feel like I'm not unique.
I feel like I don't even care what I seek to be,
Though I usually wake up and seek my needs,
Do all I can to be leet in deeds.

But right now I don't care about this verse I write,
I just died and the hearse is tight.
I feel alive somewhere inside,
Like it's growing and I hope I'll nurse it bright.

When I started this I wasn't perched to fight,
I was slumped like a purse on a Nurse on flight.
But now I straighten my back like I've learned that life,
Throws you downs and you climb up, re-surge and right!

All the wrongs you've done, you carry on!
You do what's right even if you don't know - that you've done wrong!
Whatever people throw at you, you just evade it all!
And when you feel good, don't wish that you could stay this tall!

Just stay where you are! You've reached it you know it!
You're king of your own soul yo! Your own you own it!
And I don't care if you don't care, if you think it's hopeless!
Know this: I felt like all was hopeless when I wrote this!

But then I rose, shit, you see what prose is?
It's a life elixir, it gives hope to hopeless!
It lets you cope and grow big! Let's you make the most if!
You feel like you're just being shit on, don't give a shit! You're Moses!

Don't quit! Don't even suppose it's over! You may be gray
But I'll glow for all the lost souls cause I just crossed roads,
Walking through paradise, feeling like an impostor,
Feeling like I had the love of my life and I just lost her,

But all is not lost, I felt it was, but still I've got Earth.
And it doesn't matter if it wasn't what I got first, that I'm not first here,
Cause this place birthed care, stare despair in the white eye
And forget the night you might die, stay alive and you'll resurface!

Cause you are worth this.

Reviews


DoomroarDoomroar

Rated 5 / 5 stars

Those moments when everything seems worthless, but then you remember that things never had any worth to begin with and suddenly your nihilism seems like a waste of time pointing at the obvious, and then you distract yourself, and suddenly you can't even remember why you felt like you felt back then.


Cyberdevil responds:

That's a... radical skepticism I wasn't really hoping to convey here! :P But yeah, it's all about distraction. Thankfully we also forget exactly how shitty we felt, even if memories sometimes enforce the moments more than the actual moments ever did.


S3CS3C

Rated 5 / 5 stars

Damn...the darker side of Cyberdevil that we rarely see.
I thought the last line was "cause you are worthless" :'(
Would make quite the morbid ending!! Good thing I read the lyrics after


Cyberdevil responds:

Yeah, it's a side I was wondering if I should upload or not, but hiphop's all about getting personal! And it gets better. Bit low volume on the last line indeed, I thought I'd added an echo but apparently I did something different. :) I mean, it's an intentionally ambiguous final line, of course! Never any different...


MattashiMattashi

Rated 5 / 5 stars

Love the lyrics man, please turn it into a full song!


Cyberdevil responds:

Thanks man. :) I don't think I'll be revising the lyrics on this one, or Glimpse, but I just might be getting instrumentals for the both of them! Stay tuned. ;)