Self-pity fills the seal, my melancholy can feel. It hurts to just exist. Sometimes I truly feel I need someone to kill me, mostly because you never gave a god damn about me. Everything just seems to fall apart, not enough to fall just idle thoughts of this, sometimes I wish I never met you at all. Because it’s not my fault I’m to fucking dumb and deficient. Not endowed with a sense of pride. Self-worth overrated when can I die? I wish I would die, just a waste of air, I’m so sorry I wasted your time. I promise it can’t happen again. There so much else out there I hope you all can see, but not me I deserve nothing. I tried hard to think why things didn’t work out. Then I realized I was just never meant to be. Everything just gets taken from me. Why do I even try, why I wake up every day? Just need my final sleep. Deprecation fills my eyes, sadness comes over me. I see this happy existence that is said to be, but yet it just can’t be achieved for me. You can have everything I got, just please end me. Self-pity fills the seal, my melancholy can feel. It hurts to just exist. Sometimes I truly feel I need someone to kill me.