originally written as a ballad in late 1999, the rhythm and structure of the song has been entirely re-tuned since those days. The poppiness of the melody stays put, but the direction in which the song goes incorporates elements of punk and metal, smashing them into the bluesy twang of the verses and choruses. The vocals sound horrible, to me, and I'll re-record them before the final version. On the intended full-length album, the song before this is a minute long... aaaaand could be described as sludge screamo, just to segue this song with a bombastic punky explosion ending right before the poppy old-timey intro 'Chicken' starts with. That intro is missing here, partly because I just haven't recorded that other song yet.

p.s.: the lyrics aren't right. that's part of why i'll re-record the vocals :p

"Chickenshit"

to whom it may concern:
this letter would read better if it were burnt
are you happy? out there without me?
well if not, safe to say it's my fault

MEMORY SERVES ME HERE
A SHOULDER, A VOICE, EVEN AN EAR
OH AND MEMORY IS ALL I HAVE
WELL WHO COULD EVER ASK FOR ANYTHING MORE?

are you out there? are you cool?
well I'm sorry if my words don't always come out ahyight
I would say 'I love you' a thousand times
if it'd bring you a fucking mile closer to me

OH BUT MEMORY FAILS ME THERE
FOR IMAGINING IS ALL I CAN EVER DARE
ALL OF THOSE MEMORIES LIE AWAKE
FOR THE IDEAL IS ALL I SEEM TO TOLERATE

we're all in this until all of us are dead
so it's nice (so nice) to know
that I've had company on this sinking boat

BECAUSE MEMORY IS ALL I'LL EVER HAVE
AND DAMN THOSE BITTERSWEET MEMORIES ARE ALL I NEED

[+RA]