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I was doodling with my ink after getting some work done and decided to draw Abby. I was bored and toyed with filters on photoshop elements and this came out by accident. I love the effect so I'm sharing it! Anyway I'm finally getting around to writing the 3rd and last chapter of the Abby series. I need time to draw out the 2nd chapter so more than likely it'll be up in 2012. While writing the 1st draft i was inspired to write another Abby poem. Keep in mind Abby's an Israeli from the original group who wandered in the desert in Exodus so some of her faith is mentioned here...Enjoy.

My heart is empty.
My soul has left me.
I cannot cry.
I don't remember how.
My body aches.
Blood caked.
All over me.

I'm cold.

So cold.

Why?

Why have I been forsaken?
Why has my soul been robbed from me?

Promises made
Promises broken
My God why have I been denied
The Promised Land.
My Homeland.
My family.
My soul.
My death.

Forever a child
Am I doomed to be?
No love?
No peace?
Forever hungry?
Forever craving the life of others?

I am a monster
I am a sinful beast
Under the eyes of you
My God
I look up to you my God

God of Abraham
God of Moses
Please save me
I'm so cold
My soul is gone
I don't want to burn
I want to be warm
Hear my cry
My God

Don't save me
I despise you
Your promises mean nothing
You've abandoned my people
Left them for dead
You let me die in the hands
Of the demon woman
My land constantly attacked
My people die everyday
In the hands of you spiritual children
I don't want salvation
From a God that's abandoned his children

I can't love
I crave
And kill
I want to love
I'm so alone
These undead victims of mine
Just empty shells

I can't love
I want to love
I want company
I want human company
I want a child
I want a family
But alas it will never happen
I would kill him
I can't make a child
In this broken dead body
Humans die so quick
I live forever
He would die at the blink
Of my eye

Forever a child
Forever a monster
Bathing in the darkness
Forever young
Forever stalking
Easy prey
O it's so grand
So easy
It's a wonderful life

I hate this life
I'm a stranger
I've killed my own people
I've killed what faith I have left
In the God of Israel

I want death

Yet I'm a coward
I don't want to take my life
I can't
This life is just too much fun
The life flows so hot down my throat
And into my wrinkled stomach
And into my veins
It fills me with warmth until
I feed again

Kill me

Don't kill me

I don't want to be a monster
But I'm already one
And it's too late to turn back
I don't want to turn back
It's too much fun

It's not fun
The suffering is so fun
Their screams are music
Their flesh feels wonderful on my rotting skin
Their blood is ecstasy

I don't know what to do anymore
I wander and feed
And plead
Begging for forgiveness from my God
Yet cursing his name
I'm a walking contradiction

Someone end it

Don't end it

I don't know what to do

I know nothing

I am dead