This drawing is of what I would prefer to look like if I were an entity based solely on the things I see/feel from music (because of my synesthesia). I've thought about stuff like this for a while now, and becoming "trans-music" (or trans-synesthesia) is something I /might/ want to do someday. But... what my life would be about would change completely if I did so. To achieve what I want, becoming trans-synesthesia would mean that I'd have to connect my mind to some sort of computer and then project these sensations into an open space for others to see (like what I was talking about yesterday). It would be astounding to experience, but it would be all that I have left at that point. That is, unless I could go back and forth. If I could, there would be so much I could use this for. I obviously wouldn't be able to show people all of what it's like, but it would definitely be intriguing to a lot of people.
What's shown here is somewhat subjective for what really happens, as it changes and moves with the music. The the thick middle part is always there though, and it usually looks like it's flowing out of the ends, dissolving like glowing sand or dust.
As for my identity... I have to say that the figure shown above and the associated emotion is a very big part of it. I'm going to try contacting synesthesia researchers about this, cause I don't think anything like this has been documented before. It feels strange to be on the forefront of such a phenomenon. Even among synesthetes, I never hear about stuff like this. They usually just talk about surface stuff, like how their 'G's are orange. I suppose I'll just have to hope that somebody recognizes it someday, cause it can be painful to have to think, "Surely I'm not the only one, right? Right?"